Changing my habits in 2015

New year brings a lot of looking back at the past year and past mistakes and forming new years resolutions that should FINALLY change our life to better.
I love resolutions. All January I am able to stay excited and keep them. Yes, all January. And then my inborn lazyness gets the better of me. But every year I still try. When I started to think about this years resolutions, I went through my old ones in my diary and realised, they  don´t really change. They are all about finishing school, getting to another school, finding a boyfriend, losing weight...
Last year I postet 31 things I want to do and looking back, I managed to do about half of them. Not too bad. Sort of. Maybe.
So this year I decided to do it a little differently and more focus on what would make my life better for real - changing my habits.

During my stay in England I managed to gain six kilograms despite of the five miles that I cycled to work every day and quite physically challenging job. Also my back issues are worse. That makes my nr.
1. Making yoga a part of my life, starting with the 30 days of yoga challenge by Yoga with Adriene

When I started this blog last year I was very excited. All January. Ehm... I will try to be better this time around.
2. Take my time and do this blog regularly. Finish all semifinished articles and write new ones.

I was looking for a some sort of creative hobby to stop doing nothing (watching series while playing candy crush) in my free time. So this is what I want to try:
3. Learn knitting

4. This year might be the year when I finally make my language certificates

5. Goodreads reading challenge: 27 books

Healthy eating and more cooking is too much of a challenge for me (one step at the time), so I have to repeat the old resolutions:
6. Taking better care of my body (drinking more water, eating less cookies, regular use of body lotions and peelings and face and hair masks...). Gosh I am really getting old =D

 Another thing I would like to change are my shopping habits:
7. Puting quality before quantity in cosmetics and clothes shopping. Better to have one good quality make-up than four ok ones.

Last but not least: In my age I should really know better.
8. Find/create/polish my personal style. I am getting too old to dress the same like when I was under twenty. (yes, I even still wear the same clothes)

What are your new years resolutions? What are you hoping to change this year?

xx

Lost in 2014

This year was not a good year for me. For the first time in my life I truly feel lost. All my life I studied. Literally. All I did before was really just get from one school to another and when I got kicked out of the last one where I was trying to get my Masters Degree, my life just lost all its purpose. Suddenly there was no plan and just so many roads to go.

What am I going to do with my life now?? I did not know anything. I didn´t know what I want to do. I had no clue. At that moment I just wanted to get out. To leave behind the feeling of failure that I felt all the time and especially as I have to come home with nothing and look my parents in the eyes. During my studies I only worked at few part-time jobs (to have more time to focus on studying ofc) and so I did not really have any proper job experience. I needed a change with a big C so I decided to take my friends advice and go to England. My English was not bad but far from useful so I worked there as a housekeeper for eight months. It was a good experience but now I just can´t help feeling like I wasted so much time and I have nothing and done nothing that matters. Do you really put housekeeping in your CV next to your Bachelors degree?
I have been home for two months now. The sad truth is that I still have no idea what I want to do. I am even writing this post to keep me from what should be my every day content - looking for a job. I just have no idea what am I looking for so I am just scrolling through it all looking for excuses.

How do you know? How can I find out what I am supposed to do? How can I get that job? I studied tourism and loved it for the most part but now I think I just loved the learning process, all the new information about countries and cultures and habits... Working in the hotel showed me that probably I am not the best person to work in there. I like working with people but when I see all the job offers seeking "open sparkling self-confident" people I know that is just not me.
So what I have to do in 2015? Figure it all out. Find a new dream. New passion. Follow that dream. Or just find a job. Any job. That won´t drive me crazy too much. And will pay the bills.

“Tomorrow, is the first blank page of a 365 page book. Write a good one.” 

― Brad Paisley.

And that scares me like hell.